A dream. Everyone is going away from me. For the next month, after cleaning up the mess of Naoharu's death, I lived alone in the winter villa. Then I wrote him a letter, probably my last, with a feeling like water. It seems that you, too, …

He probably doesn't know anything about other people's paintings, whether they are foreign or Japanese. In addition, he probably doesn't even know what he's painting. You are just self-consciously smearing paint on the canvas for money to …

I was already taking money and goods out of my house, making my mom and you sad, and I myself wasn't having any fun at all. Even when I planned to start a publishing business, it was just for show, and I didn't really mean it at all. I'm n…

Naoji's suicide note. Sister. No, you can't. I'll go first. I don't know why I have to live at all. Only those who want to live can live. Human beings have the right to live as well as the right to die. My way of thinking is nothing new, i…

A branch of a roadside tree. A branch without a single leaf on it, piercing the night sky with its sharp, faint light.I couldn't help but say to myself, "Tree branches are beautiful, aren't they? I couldn't help saying to myself, "Tree bra…

I heard the front door rattle open.I heard a young man's voice saying, "Sir, I've got it. I heard a young man's voice saying, "Sir, I've got it.I insisted on 20,000 yen, but finally I got 10,000 yen."A check? Mr. Uehara's voice was hushed.…

I quickly found an oden shop called Shiraishi in front of the station. But that person was not there.He must be in Asagaya. If you go straight to the north exit of Asagaya Station, you will see a hardware store. There's a hardware store, a…

Let the battle begin. I could not stay in sorrow forever. There was something I had to fight for. A new ethic. No, it would be hypocritical to say so. Love. That was it. Just as Rosa would not have survived without her new economics, I mus…

There is a female snake with red stripes on a stone in her shoes on the porch, isn't there? Look at it. With a chill in my heart, I stood up and walked out to the porch, and looked through the glass door to see a snake stretched out on the…

We sat in silence for a while, looking down at the winter river."Be safe. If this is goodbye forever, be safe forever. Byron. And then he recited the Byron poem in the original and hugged me lightly. I was embarrassed."I'm sorry. I was so …

I stood up and went to the room. I moved the couch in the room to the edge of the tatami room and sat down so that I could see her face. I sat down so that I could see her mother's face. Her face did not look sick at all. Her eyes were bea…

This summer, I wrote three letters to a man, but he did not respond to them. No matter how I looked at it, I felt that there was no other way for me to live, so I wrote my heart out in three letters, and posted them as if I were jumping do…

I like delinquents. I like delinquents, and I like delinquents with badges. That's why I want to become a delinquent with a badge. I feel like there is no other way for me to live. You are probably the best delinquent in Japan. My brother …

Thirty. Until twenty-nine, a woman still has the scent of a maiden. When I looked outside, I saw the sea glittering in the midday sun like a shard of glass. When I read that novel, I lightly affirmed that it was true, and kept it clear. I …

I was wondering for a long time whether I should write to you or not. But this morning, I suddenly remembered Jesus' words, "Be as straightforward as a dove and as wise as a serpent," which strangely cheered me up and I decided to write to…

Ms. Uehara was reading a newspaper alone in her room. She was wearing a striped lined kimono and a dark blue kasuri haori."My wife is with my child right now, picking up rations. He said this in a slightly nasal voice and in a broken voice…

Four or five days ago, after consulting with my mother, I asked Mr. Nakai, a farmer down the street, to help me, and we brought Naoharu's wardrobe, desk, bookcase, and five or six wooden boxes full of books, notebooks, etc., all the things…

I felt as if I couldn't live any longer. I wondered if this was that feeling of anxiety, a painful wave lapping at my chest, clamping and loosening my heart like white clouds rushing past one after another in the sky after an evening showe…

By "apprentice," do you mean maid?No, it was my uncle, you know, from Komaba. "My uncle, you know, from Komaba," he said, referring to a certain sovereign.He said that since she was related to us, Kazuko would not be so lonely and uncomfor…

There was an interesting poem in a newspaper right after the war ended, but when I think back on it now, I feel as if many things happened, but at the same time, I feel as if nothing happened. I don't want to talk about or listen to the me…

About ten days had passed since the snake egg incident, and a series of ominous events had occurred, deepening your mother's grief and diminishing her life. I almost started the fire. I started the fire. I had never dreamed of such a horri…

She had never once expressed such weakness to me, nor had she ever let me see her cry so intensely. When your father passed away, when I went to get married, when I came back to your mother with a baby in my belly, when the baby died in th…

Let me tell you a story about snakes. Four or five afternoons before, some neighborhood children found about ten snake eggs in the bamboo thicket of the garden hedge. The children said"They are pit viper eggs! The children insisted. I thou…

In the morning, in the dining room, you take a spoonful of swoop, and your mother says."Ah!"Hair? I wondered if there was something in the soup that she didn't like.No. As if nothing had happened, she flicked another spoonful into her mout…

They hung their hats and overcoats on the nail nails, took off their shoes, and paced to the door. On the back of the door, they found"Tie pins, cuff links, glasses, purses, and other hardware. Tie pins, cuff links, glasses, glasses, walle…

Two young gentlemen, looking exactly like British soldiers, carrying shiny guns and two dogs that looked like polar bears, were walking through the thick foliage deep in the mountains, saying things like this.These mountains are really str…

ゆめ。 皆が、私から離れて行く。 直治の死のあと始末をして、それから一箇月間、私は冬の山荘にひとりで住んでいた。 そうして私は、あのひとに、おそらくはこれが最後の手紙を、水のような気持で、書いて差し上げた。 どうやら、あなたも、私をお捨てにな…

おそらくあのひとは、他のひとの絵は、外国人の絵でも日本人の絵でも、なんにもわかっていないでしょう。おまけに、自分の画いている絵も、何の事やらご自身わかっていないでしょう。ただ遊興のための金がほしさに、無我夢中で絵具をカンヴァスにぬたくって…

そうしてただもう、自分の家からお金や品物を持ち出して、ママやあなたを悲しませ、僕自身も、少しも楽しくなく、出版業など計画したのも、ただ、てれかくしのお体裁で、実はちっとも本気で無かったのです。本気でやってみたところで、ひとのごちそうにさえ…

直治の遺書。 姉さん。 だめだ。さきに行くよ。 僕(ぼく)は自分がなぜ生きていなければならないのか、それが全然わからないのです。 生きていたい人だけは、生きるがよい。 人間には生きる権利があると同様に、死ぬる権利もある筈です。 僕のこんな考え方は…